It's that time of the quarter, where the internal struggle rises between the desire to relax and the obligation to continue pushing hard, getting schoolwork done.
In my Anatomy & Physiology class, the workload has increased enormously. The amount of content that is required of us to absorb and learn is unbelievable. I am a good student and have a GPA of 3.89, and yet I am having a lot of difficulty maintaining my confidence that I will get an A out of this class. Today I am having to forgo volunteering in my son's kindergarten class just so I can get through studying all the content needed before my class on campus tonight.
I, of course, feel terribly guilty about missing my volunteer shift. My son is 6 and learning to read. Getting him to read at home is a struggle, but when I'm in the classroom with him, he wants me to read with him and no one else ;) Missing my volunteer shift today means missing the opportunity to read with him and his experience of confidence-building by having mom there.
My internal struggle includes my obligations as a mom. Essentially, I am putting my academic performance above my son's. However, he is in kindergarten and I am taking one of the hardest classes I've taken yet. I have weighed the pros and cons, and eventually came to this choice. Understandably, my son doesn't understand the importance of my school work. He just knows I'm choosing NOT to be with him at school. I just have to keep reminding myself that sometimes little sacrifices are necessary. My son will forget that I missed his class in a day or so. But, the time spent on studying will directly affect my performance in A&P, and the grade from this class is important for program admissions.
Thankfully, there are only 2 weeks left in the quarter. My husband and I made the decision together that I will take the summer off. I so desperately look forward to being able to devote my attention and my time solely to my children and to our enjoyment of summer! Hopefully by June 15th (my last class), the weather will look up and it will actually feel like summer. I can't wait.
I wouldn't feel too guilty about having to miss your son's kindergarten class. Everyone has something that comes up and that class is especially hard, from other I have known who have taken it. I always think the one of the best signs of a good parent are the ones who truly worry about it. I'm always a little concerned when a parent isn't worried at all about the amount of time they spend with their child, especially if they are busy people. It sounds like your doing great! :) Good luck with the class!
ReplyDeleteTo be frank, I think everybody's out of it right now towards the end of this term. The students in my classes are all looking like they've been hung out to dry. And even I am getting pretty tired. So hang in there and ensure that your son will be proud of you even though you have to miss this one day.
ReplyDeleteIt is very hard to try to put certain priorities over others because you know how important your son is, but at the same time schoolwork is very important as well. I agree with ready for school to be over with, a lot has happened this year and it is very crazy to think that I will be graduating in a year. I have to find a full time job and no more hanging out at home and going to frat parties over the weekend. Hope all works out for you and enjoyed reading your post!
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